I have always been one to go silent when things upset me or worse, hurt me. I always found solace in my silence as it was a way not to say things I would later regret. Although it doesn’t always work out that way. I will say that with the years I have grown to adapt to the concept more often. It’s not for a lack of wanting to communicate but I am learning and have learned to choose my battles. If having a chronic illness has taught me anything it’s to choose what you use your energy on. At times it is not worth your energy, when you know things will never change.
But is it a defense? Am I hiding from what I feel by hiding behind silence?
This morning this quote couldn’t have been more spot on. Thank you to my nearest and dearest for always hearing my silence!!